We are having a(nother) baby!

It is a wonderful feeling that I can now finally yell it out, we are growing our family by ten little toes. But before I go on, let’s start with how this all started. Almost a year ago I began to wonder if I was doing wrong for my son in not giving him a sibling. Truth be told, I never really thought about how many children I wanted. When Nick arrived I was perfectly content with just one. I never got the itch for a second one. I was an only child and came from a very small family so that’s what I am comfortable with.

Then after Nick turned two my husband and I began to discuss the subject. My husband was sure we were going to have three children based off of tarot card readings we had years back. So when we did begin to talk about it we decided that an ideal time would be for them to be about four years apart. We wanted to enjoy both of them and around three Nick would be starting school or getting ready for school.

Then last Easter I stood there with a broken heart as I saw my little one running around alone finding the eggs my mom, husband, and I had hid for him. He was appreciative like always but I couldn’t help but wonder if I was being selfish towards him by not giving him a little companion. Then Nick began to see how one of his little friend’s pregnant mom’s belly began to grow. It all began to click in his little head. Shortly after that he began to ask for a baby.

I began to test him and would say, “you’re going to have to share your room, are you okay with that?” His answer: “Yes.” “You’re going to have to share your toys, how do you feel about that?” Hi answer: “That’s okay.” Eventually sometime during his birthday week he told me, “Momma, next year I don’t want a birthday party. I want a baby brother.” My momma heart was broken, my little guy was telling me that he was lonely and needed that little partner in crime.

You can say I saw him as an only child because that’s the only reality I know. For the most part, growing up as an only child was great. I probably matured faster, I was independent from a very young age, and I enjoy the quiet. The cons? I get anxious when there’s more than say 3 or 4 people around enclosed spaces. Kids that are not my own, most of the time make me anxious as well and I cannot stand. And probably the worst, once I was an adult and life truly tested me, I had no one to turn to. I always had my parents but during those times, the issues that i went through had to do with them. Their separation. The rupture of my family. Although I could talk to and I did talk to my closest friends about it, as much as they tried to they would never truly comprehend what i was going through. That’s when I would have needed that sibling.

And now here we are, after about three months of trying we were greeted with the wonderful news of a positive pregnancy test in January. I was able to visit my doctor towards the end of February and everything was well. We have been given the due date of October 4, 2019. And that is such a special date for us, even if he or she doesn’t truly arrive on said date but that will be the thirteenth anniversary since my husband and I began to date. Nick will be about 4 years old and three months. I can’t help but think that everything just turns out the way its supposed to be.

Now onto the next question, any more? No. My husband and I have decided that this is it for us. Two and we are done. And yes, whether it’s a boy or a girl that’s it. Another question I have gotten is how is Nick taking the news. He’s ecstatic. He says that the baby is in his belly … which he will hopefully understand a little better when he sees my growing belly. He claims he will share his room with the baby and that he will carry him when he cries. Oh and he is determined that it will be a boy. I can’t wait to see that sibling bond between the two and even just thinking about it my momma heart can’t handle it.

I look forward to sharing this new journey with you all. And please, share how your little ones welcomed the arrival of their new siblings, and any tips you can have to make this transition from only child to big brother as smooth as possible.